Do you ever feel so lonely that it just rips you up inside? Do you ever feel the need to just shout out and just cry? Do you ever feel so alone in this world you wish you could disappear?
If you do, you're not alone.
When you love someone so much and when there's nothing you can do to be with them, what should you do? I'm not really so sure myself. I've been thinking why am I feeling this way? Why can't it be so simple that I just get over him? Why won't these feelings go away?
I feel so sad and depressed that I even googled "how to get over someone" in search for answers.
All in all there was one site that gave 10 ways to get over someone, which involves no communication, pre-occupying yourself, food indulgence and just moving on. However it's easier said than done.
What if you're like me, you feel you don't have many close friends and there's noone else to turn to? He's the only person that feels that empty void. He wants to be there for you, but there more complicated issues then just wanting to be together and you just can't do it. You can't be with him no matter how much you want to. You wish you had closer friends to turn to, and you know that he's ever so lucky to have the friends that he has. You see he has more support then you and hes surrounded by people who care about him and will always be there for him. However you're left by yourself with only him to support you, but you just can't turn to him, because he's the one thats now causing you so much pain, because you just can't get over him. What should you do? I don't really know.
I've tried many different things. I've tried to pre-occupy myself, to get our more, and meet new people. But its hard when your friends are his friends and they invite both of you to their outings. Then you feel to afraid to mingle with others infront of him, and you worry about the girls that approach him. You just feel like noone's ever going to replace him. Sometimes I feel like i'm stuck in a deep dark hole, where if someone were to rescue me, they would have to face the risk of death. Who in the right mind would want to risk that for someone they barely even know? Noone. Therefore I will just be stuck here forever.
However, face the facts, I have to get over him.
There's nothing else you can do, but just wipe away those tears, toughen up and move on. Its how life works. Obstacles are placed infront of you, and you have to just find a way to get around them. If you don't you will never step forward, you will never move on with life.
Have to try to get out more, have to try to meet more people. How I wish where i lived had more opportunities to make more friends rather than meet people to date. They should really have speed friending in every city rather than speed dating.
Hopefully someone will come along, pick me up and save me from this feeling I feel. If you're in the same situation. I hope you will be saved too.
